I went to my therapist this morning. I really like her. We were working on self esteem today. I need it. But I have been taking a weight lost suplement for almost 2 months now. According to my scale at home, I have lost roughly 15 pounds. My scale is not very accurate though, as I could get on it six times and have six different numbers, but they are all usually around the same numbert. But when I put a 5# bag of flour on it, it was accurate. So anyway, the scale at home shows 15 plus or minus a pound or two. I was curious so I weighed myself at the doctors office this morning. According to that scale, I haven't lost even one pound! How can that be? How can my scale at home be completely 15#'s off? I am so disappointed. I knew my clothes hadn't been fitting any different...well I actually thought my jeans were a little loser, not in the waist but in the thigh and butt area. Apparently not. Now I am not sure what to do...that isn't true. I know what I need to do, I am just not able to force myself to do it. It is a horrible circle...I am so overweight that I feel hopeless which makes me not want to count calories or exercise or anything which in turn makes me feel hopeless. I can't get excited about planning my meals and feeling good about them. No food sounds good or appetizing. I just don't want to eat anything.
Financially, I borrowed $150 from my son's account to get me through until Friday. I will then pay him back when I get paid. Might go see the new Twilight at midnight tonight at the drive in. Haven't decided yet. I know I don't need to spend that money, but I need to do something to lighten my spirits and a trip to the drive in is a lot cheaper than the regular movie theater.
Disappointed
June 29th, 2010 at 06:23 pm
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Stay strong--we're pulling for you!
June 29th, 2010 at 11:28 pm 1277854101
They say it is a good idea to weigh yourself at the same time every day. And you only need to weigh yourself once a day. I weigh myself when I get up in the morning, DF weighs himself after his shower when he gets home from work.
July 1st, 2010 at 09:45 pm 1278020721
I also encourage you to use a tape measure in addition to the scale. I've never dropped a ton of weight quickly, but I lost enough inches to keep me going. Its been my experience that the scale can lie a lot, but clothes don't. Also when you test your clothes, they need to be freshly washed. You wear them for a few hours and they stretch out.