I sent my son to the grocery store yesterday to get a few things. I sent him with a list. I thought it would be about $30-40 if he stuck to the list. I told him to be frugal when he left. He got everything on the list for $18!!! I can't figure out how he did it! But I don't care! The point is that I will be sending him to the store with a list for a while!! LOL

There is nothing new to report on the DH front...he is working around the yard today trying to get it picked up.

I will have to get gas when I take daughter to cheerleading tonight. Bummer.

I screwed up my online bill pay. I scheduled a large payment for last friday instead of tomorrow. So I am on pins and needles until tomorrow to see if i have any NSF. I hope not...I really can't afford it. I hope that everything turns out okay.

I am working from home today...got alot done...for work and for home. Been very productive.

With the money that my sister is loaning me, my utilities and household expenses will finally be on time! I mean they won't be due for another whole month! WOW! What a feeling!

I also bought my first Christmas present. My other sister and I are getting my son a laptop. We went in together so that I didn't overspend my Christmas budget. I am excited about it. Still on the lookout for a Wii for my daughter.

I have not been posting updates lately. Not feeling up to it. I have felt in a blah mood the last few days. I brokedown today and borrowed a large sum of money from my sister. It makes me feel pretty worthless to be 35(36 next Saturday) and not be financially independent. I took a serious look and realized that i was busy playing catch up and wasn't getting anywhere. Hopefully by borrowing this money I will be able to make progress. I set up a payment schedule with her(in the past, I borrow and never pay back...don't want that). So...hopefully things will get better now.

Well, as my info indicates, I am barely keeping my power on. I called yesterday to make arrangements with the bill. I was told that it was already out for disconnect but that she would try to catch him. When I got home, he(the mysterious power man) had been there and disconnected my power...but apparently the office had gotten in touch with him so he turned it back on. The relief I felt was great. I did not enjoy the thought of having to ask my parents for money for the power bill(who would have given it to me, but I am working so hard to try to be independent). This is the closest I have come to having the power turned off. The experience yesterday just makes my realization of last week hit even harder. What was I thinking? $55 a week(which is probably average) would have paid the power bill...but when I was spending that, I didn't think it added up to that much.

I intend to used this blog to keep up with my daily spending habits. I have a hard time not spending money even when I shouldn't. My credit cards are all over the limit and I am behind on the payments. I haven't done a "real" grocery trip in a couple of months...we have food, but not what we want. But yet I always find the money to get a bagel and coke on the way to work in the morning.

I need to make myself realize what I spend...and maybe putting it in writing will help me do that.