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August 17th, 2013 at 06:41 pm

Hi Friends! Sorry I haven't been around lately. I have been sliding down hill depression wise and just barely to keep my head above water going to work each day.

Today I wrote out an entire month's worth of expenses and compared it to what I bring in. Turns out I am about $500 short each month. That explains alot. I spent the afternoon filling out applications for CVS, Walmart, and Food Lion. Hopefully one of them will call me back. I applied at two different Walmarts and 2 different CVS's.

When I was telling me mom about filling out the applications she said that she doesn't want me to get a second job. And to stop paying her the power bill...she can cover it for a while. This made me feel like crap. Hello depression.

I still am going to take a job if anyone calls me. Because not paying the power bill still makes me $300 short each month. And I would like to get a little ahead. Plus with DD working and DS moved to Kennesaw(about an hour away), I am just sitting here doing nothing in the evenings and weekends.

DD turned 16 and got her drivers license. She had some money that my mom had been saving for her for a car. We found one and were going to finance the difference, about $3000. My mom wasn't happy with DD having a car payment so she paid off her car. The only thing she has to pay each month is her gas and her insurance. Car insurance is ridiculous. It went up $200 when I added her and the car. DD pays a portion of that.

I got a raise at work recently. I went from $16/hour to $36000/ year. It worked out to about a $2/hour raise. But I lost all of my OT. So really it is about $1000 more per year than I was making. I also got a bonus of $1700. It went toward DD's car since I had borrowed some of what my mom had saved. My boss is awesome!

As I mentioned...DS moved to Kennesaw. He is renting an apartment with a friend. Everything they put in the apartment fit in the back of a pick up truck. I had to laugh. I remember my first apartment. There was no furniture other than a bed. I sent him a care package of toilet paper, soap, and shampoo. All of the things he wouldn't think to buy for himself. I am having a real hard time though with his moving out. I have had to increase my visits to the therapist to help me deal with it. I don't think I will survive when DD decides to move out.

Well...that about sums it up for a while. I will try to post more often. I have missed you guys and your support.

Please no negative comments...I can't deal with them right now.

20 Responses to “Checking In”

  1. creditcardfree Says:

    Glad to hear from you!! Depression can be so tough, huh? Fingers crossed a job is waiting for you.

  2. Petunia 100 Says:

    It is so nice to read a new post from you! I hope you start feeling better soon. Smile

  3. sarah Says:

    Hugs I know what depression is like

  4. snafu Says:

    Happy to hear from you, congratulation on raise and getting a bonus. Take care of yourself and wonder if exercise might help with depression. Love hearing good news, what car did DD buy?

  5. baselle Says:

    Congratulations on the raise. Keep posting; we are here for you.

  6. My English Castle Says:

    I've been wondering how you are. Hope you're feeling better soon.

  7. scfr Says:

    It is good to hear from you.

  8. IndianGal Says:

    Congratulations on the raise. Depression can be so very awful. I hope you are able to get some therapy or other support that you need. Keep posting, and you will receive a lot of support from people on the boards here. Take care of yourself.

  9. Looking Forward Says:

    You feel *proud* that you raised children who can move out and take care of themselves!
    Congrats on the raise. A second job might be very good, plus employee discounts... Big Grin

  10. Bob B. Says:

    Welcome back.

  11. mamasita Says:

    Glad to hear from you, please continue to take care of yourself. I second the exercise suggestion, my doctors have all stressed the importance of exercise even while on medication, it just makes the treatment so much more effective.

  12. laura Says:

    Hi! Nice to see you back! I have thought of you often and hoped that you are doing well. Sounds like things have been rough, but you're still plodding along. I agree that a second job might be a good thing, additional income is always good. It is a good thing that you've got professional support. I'm feeling the woes of an empty nest today and it is only school! But my house sure is quiet.

  13. CB in the City Says:

    Good to hear from you; I've been thinking about you.

  14. PNW Mom Says:

    Welcome back....so glad you checked in!

  15. LuckyRobin Says:

    I've been wondering what happened to you. Sorry you are dealing with depression. It's a bear. Since your son has moved out, have you thought about possibly renting out his room to someone to generate some income for the shortfall? What is going on with the rental house? Did you ever get good tenants?

  16. rachel021406 Says:

    Glad you checked in. Take it a step at a time. Things will get better. We are all here for you.

  17. twest Says:

    Glad to hear from you. I have been wondering about how you are doing.

  18. scottish girl Says:

    It's good to hear from you.

  19. imarunner Says:

    hope you feel better soon. it's great that you have a supporting mom.

  20. Thrifty Ray Says:

    One day at a time. Glad you felt up to updating your blog- I hope things are easing up a little.

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