My best friend received her tax refund and
another really large unexpected payment. She wants to take a me on a girls weekend. We looked at different places online last night. Thought about Grove Park Inn, but man...that place is EXPENSIVE! So I looked around some more last night. However, it was bothering me that she would be paying for me to go. Not that she would ever hold that against me in the future or anything. But it bothers me. The old me would have jumped at the opportunity, because that was how I lived. But the new me doesn't feel comfortable with this. So this morning I told her that I really wanted to do a girls weekend, but if she wanted me to go, we would have to wait until I could pay my share, which will probably be in the fall. She tried to convince me to go anyway,, but I stood firm. Am I crazy? Turning down a free weekend?
A little history: She has MS and hasn't been able to work for almost 2 years now. They struggle to do the "extra" things. Their cell phones have been cut off because they couldn't pay the bill. This is probably going to be a turning point for them but I still don't feel comfortable letting her do this.
Also,, the old me would have jumped on it! I would mention to my sister what I wanted and it would show up within a week! I am trying very hard to get the things I want on my own now. I think that would just throw me back into that life again.
I feel good about the decision I made. I think it shows that I am making progess on the new me.
Am I Crazy??
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