I haven't been blogging too much. So much has been going on. DH moved out yesterday morning. Although it was what I wanted, it still was not easy. Now the doubt sets in...did I do the right thing...although I know I did. Financially, I will be better off. Last week alone, he used almost $100 of my money for gas. Not sure where his money went and he couldn't tell me. He felt like I was acting like this because I make more money than him. But I used to make what he made and I was able to keep my household running as a single mom. Anyway...today is my first day as a single mom again.
I realized that the people I have in my life are very good to me. My boss has been the most encouraging to me. I knew he was a great guy, but it has just been proven again. I told him everything that was going on, with my diagnosis and dh. He was very encouraging. I also asked him on Friday to consider giving me a long term loan to get out of the deficit that was coming up. I said I don't need an answer right now, but he said, I have thought about it and my answer is yes. No hesitation. He gave me a big hug...not a fake one, but a hold on tight one. I am really blessed. I haven't told my family yet that Chris moved out. I know they will be supportive, but my parents are from that "death til you part" generation no matter what. So they will be disappointed, but they will still support me.
With the loan from work, I was able to get everything caught up, even the cell phone bill. So everything is current. I am making progress on my credit cards, although not as much as I would like. We have groceries so we are fine.
I haven't told the kids yet, they are at their dad's this weekend. DD will have the hardest time. She was really close to him. So that will be another hard day.
But I am starting to get the house cleaned up and get back to myself and the way we used to live. Have a lot to do, but will do it one step at a time.
Big changes in my life...
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November 8th, 2009 at 02:33 pm 1257690799
Just take things one step at a time like you said. Take care of yourself!
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November 8th, 2009 at 04:15 pm 1257696906
Good luck!! I'm sure you'll find it much easier to get on track now.
November 8th, 2009 at 04:32 pm 1257697941
I'm sorry for your troubles. Chin up.
We're here if you need a shoulder.
November 8th, 2009 at 04:51 pm 1257699106
November 8th, 2009 at 04:58 pm 1257699504
You have the support of everyone here and your loved ones, so you will get through this and come out even stronger. Your boss sounds like a gem.
November 8th, 2009 at 05:29 pm 1257701349
November 8th, 2009 at 07:18 pm 1257707934
Hang in there! And I hate to say this, but I have asthma and it is cats that bring it on for me. I have two little terriers and my asthma is under good control on my maintenance medication.
November 8th, 2009 at 07:51 pm 1257709886
November 8th, 2009 at 11:28 pm 1257722929
Kudos for pulling everything together so wonderfully for you and your kids.
November 9th, 2009 at 05:05 am 1257743126
Donīt worry, thereīll be better days ahead!
November 9th, 2009 at 01:37 pm 1257773829